Hurt.


Long as I remember the rain been comin down.
Clouds of mystry pourin confusion on the ground.
Good men through the ages, tryin to find the sun;
And I wonder, still I wonder, wholl stop the rain.




I feel like a sitting duck.

A very sad sitting duck.

I feel like I'm going to be alone forever. Waiting. Sitting.

I feel like I am always trying to convince myself to take a chance. Take a chance on Cory, take a chance on Dave. Take a chance on this when I know there is a really good chance it's not going to work.

I don't know what I'm doing anymore.


i feel like nothing I am doing is right.

And I can't stop.

Because I don't know how to fix it.

A Public Affair.

It's a whole 'nother day
I'm back up in ya'
Snoop D O Double G
I representa'
Been away for a while but you all know
I'm still doggystylin' on Death Row
Got shit locked down
Sewed up
So If you plan on comin' out nigga hold up.
This a stick up
dick up
They got yo' shit on the shelf, oh mine is too
and guess who they gon' pick up?

If once a week I see someone pick their nose and eat it while in their car. How many people pick there nose? How many people eat it?

How many people are smart enough to know that I can see and pick their nose and eat it in private.

And why is it so hard to get grown adults to eat enough vegetables but they have no problem chowing down on a booger.



Disgusting.

Who'll Stop The Rain.

It’s your life
Things may not always go right, for you
In those times
Just leave it behind
Cause sometimes you gotta play the game
Just to survive
Without losing yourself
It’s a fight, it’s true
It takes time
Don’t have all the answers
No matter how hard it gets
Hold on to what’s inside

Don’t never let nobody bring you down girl
Don’t never let nobody tear your world apart
Look in the mirror and see who you are
Beautiful U R

Don't care what they say anymore
No time to be insecure
I'm leaving it all at the door

I've been looking for a new job since 5 days after I started this one.


I don't like my job. No - I don't like most of my job. There are some parts I like. I like Baby B and I like Palliative D. But that would be about it.

So now, I have another job. A better (?) job.

But I still need to keep my old job.

And now I have an out with jerk-dad.

And everything is so confusing I have no clue what I should do.

They told me day-shifts only went to "seasoned" staff - so why did they give one spot to a new grad? I can't fight for something they have already given away - but I have an out.

I told them I would try for 2 weeks to get along, I told them I would try for 2 weeks to get by.

Nothing happened in those 2 weeks that would justify me jumping from the team... nothing except they screwed me over.

I want off - just to piss them off.

I want out - because it's just not fair.

If I want to be happy - if I want things to get better - I need to jump. I need to close my eyes, I need to take a deep breath, I need to jump. But it's scary - what if I can't make ends meet? What if money gets tight? What if.

What if.

What if I didn't. What if I had to carry on the way I am now.

What if I just took a chance.

What if I told them why I was taking a chance.

What if I told them it's just not fair. Then I dove right in, head first, icy-cold.

Will I float? What if I don't. Will it be any worse than it is right now? Probably not.