A Very Merry Un-Birthday To You. To Me.

I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
A girl who's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me?
I feel so all alone

Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there, no one cares for me
What's the sense of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share it with
Tell me what does it mean?


The computer countdown reminds me... 3 days until my Birthday.

Will running away help? Will trying to leave it behind, help me forget... that this too, looks like it's going to be, the same as every other year.

Saturday afternoon my Little Sister slapped me, Saturday night he slapped my face. "You're nice, you're pretty... but one mistake and your out."

"you didn't put out Laura"
"you asked too many questions Laura"
"you gave me a million chances, I won't even give you one Laura"

Fine.

And in some moment of fear I took a shift tomorrow, I should have said no. I handed in my resume on Monday and by Wednesday I will probably know.

No Sister, No relationship, No job.

No me.

Happy No Birthday to me.