Daughters

Trying hard to speak and
Fighting with my weak hand
Driven to distraction
So part of the plan
When something is broken
And you try to fix it
Trying to repair it
Any way you can
I'm diving off the deep end
You become my best friend
I wanna love you
But I don't know if I can
I know something is broken
And I'm trying to fix it
Trying to repair it
Any way I can

My dad drank too much. My ex boyfriend drank too much.

So why so much anxiety when he drinks?

Because maybe he'll drink too much too.

Alcohol makes people I love say things they really mean but should never say.

Everyone else has a fun relationship with alcohol. Except me. Alcohol haunts me. Alcohol scares me.

Alcohol kicks me when I'm down.

And I don't even drink it.

Alcohol ruined so many things. Please don't ruin this too.

Don't You Forget It.

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

If I am so in love with myself, then why am I so terrified he'll find someone else.

Someone better.

What It Feels Like For A Girl.

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you


It feels crummy to know that I might be the last person who thinks that "making love" is something you do when you already have "love". It feels crummy to think that having so much respect for yourself could be misinterpreted - as having standards that are just too high.

I don't want to be difficult. I don't want to be a turn off.

I just want to make love to someone who loves me as much as I do.

It's Not Right But It's Okay.

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If its wrong to love you
Then my heart just wont let me be right
cause Ive drowned in you.

It's happening.

For the very first time. I can't stop it and I don't wish I could.

I'm falling downhill, I'm out of control, I'm running as fast as I can.

And if it feel so good, then why am I so scared?

How Will I Know?

I can't wait to fall in love with you
You can't wait to fall in love with me
This just can't be summer love, you'll see
This just can't be summer love
L-O-V-E
'Cause I can't wait to fall in love with you
You can't wait to fall in love with me
This just can't be summer love, you'll see
This just can't be summer love
L-O-V-E

If it isn't there....


...then why can't I stop thinking about him.

I Wouldn't Normally Do This Sort of Thing.

Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given
I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language
I don't understand

I just wanna feel
Real love feel the home that I live in
Cos I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste




What am I doing?

Why can't I just stop?

Thank you job-fairy.

Work It.

Standing in line marking time--
Waiting for the welfare dime
'Cause they can't buy a job
The man in the silk suit hurries by
As he catches the poor old ladies' eyes
Just for fun he says "Get a job"

That's just the way it is
Some things will never change
That's just the way it is
But don't you believe them

But don't you believe them.

Every time I ever lost a tooth, all I had to do was place it under my pillow and 8 hours later two dollars would appear, where none had been before.

Why can't I put a resume under my pillow and 8 hours later the job fairy will have given me the job I really want.

Why is working so hard for something I really want, so stressful?