By All Means Necessary.

If only the world wouldn't get in the way
If only people would just let you play
They say you're both being fools
You're breaking all the rules
They can't understand, the magic of your wonderland

It doesn't matter.

Sometimes I forget, but then I remember. All of this. It doesn't matter.

My family, my friends, sleeping in then running until I can't breath, eating ice cream with my little sister, being me.

That's what matters.

Not this. This doesn't matter anymore. Its just not worth it.

Who'll Stop The Rain.

Too many shadows in my room
Too many hours in this midnight
Too many corners in my mind
So much to do to set my heart right
Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair

Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new look upon me
Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair

And now i'm walking in a park
All of the birds they dance below me
Maybe when things turn green again
It will be good to say you know me.

I know some shitty people who have gotten jobs. I know some shitty people that got references and got jobs.

But just cause one single stupid god-damn person doesn't believe in me. No one else may never too.

And now I can't do what I want, because no one will want me.

I tried so hard and it just wasn't enough. And I can't try anymore because trying just gets me no where.

Pocketful of Sunshine.


Sometimes it feels like I’m raining on the inside,
And all the things that I’m trying I don’t get it right.
Yeah, sometimes, I fall but I get up,
And it takes a while but I get there in my own time.

When the craziness begins to get to me,
Just need a hand to hold, just be that somebody.
It’s your tenderness that’s gonna make it right,
Give me a piece of your heart, not a piece of your mind.

Life is a very wide open door,
You can go through every time you want more.
Why do I feel like the glass is half full,
When I’ve got enough of it to feel, a swimming pool.

I have a new little sisters. She's seven and cute as a button.

She's exactly like me when I was seven.

I promise that I will never let her spirit break. I promise that she will always know that she can do anything. I promise that she will never have to go through what I did. I promise that she will always know how wonderful she is, even when other's don't.

L.O.V.E.

It's driving me out of my mind
That's why it's hard for me to find
Can't get it outta my head
Miss her, kiss her, love her, wrong move you're dead

That girl is poison
Never trust a big butt and smile
That girl is poison poison

I have listened to Poison by Bel-Biv-Devoe 97 times. Really?... No... Really.

Like the tennis player and the oboist and the guy who fixes hard drives, we need practice to get good at what we do. There is one difference in medicine though: it is people we practice upon.

...and the biggest difference researchers find between them and lesser performers is the cumulative amount of deliberate practice they've had. Indeed, the most important talent may be the talent for practice itself.

...the most important way in which innate factors play a role may be one's willingness to engage in the sustained training.... top performers dislike practicing just as much as others do, but more than others, they have the will to keep at it anyway.

practice is funny that way. For days and days you make out only the fragments of what to do. And then one day, you've got the thing whole. Conscious learning becomes unconscious knowledge and you cannot say precisely how